My son, Justin, lived a lot of years longing for the love of a father to ease his heavy load. His bio-dad abandoned us before he was born and my first husband who raised him from 10 months old had to decide between Justin and his second wife. He chose his second wife. By the time my husband came along, Justin was well into self-destruction and hating any man who looked like a dad except for my dad his lifelong friend. (There are a lot of dads in that paragraph...)
The last summer Justin was with us, I heard this song by Randy Travis and God just gave me a beautiful verse of Scripture and word for my boy. Psalm 68:5 "A father to the fatherless and a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling." I asked my son to stop self-destructing in the name of men who did not love him. I went on to tell him that if he opened himself up to it that he had a Father in heaven who would love him like no man on earth ever could or would. He heard me that night and I played this song for him... Thanks Michelle V for reminding of this precious memory of one of my son's last days!
Praise the Lord, my son is in Heaven today and he knows the love of His heavenly Father in all its fullness. I love him and I miss him, but I am so glad he is at home.
Blessings...
4 comments:
Michelle,
Wow! I love that! I had not heard that song before! Thank you for sharing your story and for being so caring and compassionate!
Blessings
Michelle V
Michelle,
Wow! I love that! I had not heard that song before! Thank you for sharing your story and for being so caring and compassionate!
Blessings
Michelle V
What a beautiful post. Thank you for giving us a window into your heart.
Hugs,
Julie
Wow. I wish you could feel the hug coming to you through the computer. I cannot imagine the loss of a child...nor all that you wnet through while you did not havea father for your son that he wanted. God is our all in all...isn't He? Hugs and prayers to you.
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