Because I've been hearing him talk to me about "Default Settings" I had to stop and think...
1. Loss due to not showing up; "he lost the game by default".
2. Act of failing to meet a financial obligation.
3. Loss resulting from failure of a debt to be paid.
4. An option that is selected automatically unless an alternative is specified.
1. Fail to pay up.
Source: WordNet 1.7.1 Copyright © 2001 by Princeton University. All rights reserved.
The thought really came to me many times in the past several months when I log into my computer and find that the default setting pulls up this annoying resident protection anti-virus feature that really doesn't keep my computer safe.
I'd like to say the world starts spinning and I roll out of bed and launch myself into the Word for support, worship so I'm immersed in His presence, and power-packed prayer meetings with the One and Only of God of the Universe so I overflow with His grace and peace and joy as my DEFAULT setting.
Still, that would hardly be the truth. I usually wake up annoyed that I can't get more than 10 minutes of uninterrupted extra sleep between the frighteningly loud beeps on the alarm clock that I intentionally set at least an hour ahead of the actual time I want to get up. Some mornings I quite frankly tell Scott to turn the darn thing off. A few times he has done what I asked only to find that we BOTH OVERSLEPT.
So roll that on ahead... Then I head out the door to work late, arrive late and play catch-up all day so I can leave late, come home exhausted and wonder why on earth my husband who gets home two hours earlier than I do did not bother to put something on for dinner to help me out.
Can you see the pattern of my default setting working here?
I have good intentions. I want to do Bible study for four hours before I head out to work and talk the LORD all day long so what happens... Real Life happens that's what. There's that lady who called needing to see somebody right now regarding a problem with her kids and after 20 minutes on the phone with her I slip away from my desk to go pray and ask the Lord why my emotions feel so stinking overwhelmed.
The answer - MY DEFAULT SETTING.
Then, I get several things on my desk that need to be done last week, so what happened - My DEFAULT SETTING. I hit it long and hard, skip lunch - forget to breathe and by 3:00 PM I announce rather loudly, "I feel like my head is going to explode."
WHY? Because of my DEFAULT SETTING.
My default setting is procrastination, keep it all in my head, and ooops I forgot, but it all depends on me so I better just get it done.
There is a song performed by Mark Shultz that resonates with my life at times:
"I think I'm running just to catch myself..."
Not that I feel like I'm overworked or underappreciated.
I do it to myself.
It's my default setting.
Put off the laundry until there are 15 loads overflowing in the closet and half of it on the loveseat in my bedroom. I'll do the dishes tomorrow only to find I am too tired. I forgot to put the meat out for dinner so we'll just get something out and all of a sudden the spin cycle begins and I've missed my date with God, the prayer I meant to pray and the life I meant to live all because my default setting is an old pattern that the new me just can't shake - why?
Paul hits that note in the book of Romans:
6 But now that we're no longer shackled to that domineering mate of sin, and out from under all those oppressive regulations and fine print, we're free to live a new life in the freedom of God.
21 It happens so regularly that it's predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. 22 I truly delight in God's commands, 23 but it's pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.
25 The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different.
Romans 7:6-25 (MSG)
Yet, we're people who have been governed by our Flesh most of our lives until we give Jesus access to our hearts and invite the Holy Spirit to fill us with His power and gifts so that we can be transformed into the image of Christ as Scripture says... "...From glory to glory."
So what about those default setting when our flesh (our worldly, fallen mind, will and emotions) has been ruling and dictating our responses. When our experiences confirm the lies that we've heard whispered in our nightmares and small circles at school and at church. Screamed at us by bullies, mothers, fathers, siblings or friends... What happens when our default setting ruminates on the past failures and wickedness of our existence? What happens when I default to pride rather than humility, or self-sufficiency over His all-sufficient grace, what then?
Pauls writes to us of the answer: "The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different." ~ Romans 7:26 (The MSG)
So the only thing left for me to do is live that way.
Live in such a way that when my Flesh and its "Default Settings" which mean a loss due to someone not showing up - or in this case not being invited to join in. I must invite God into every place, every aspect of my life and existence. I must ask Him to trim away my flesh and it's desires so I may live fully in relationship with Him allowing His Spirit and His Word to work the transformation from my worldly identity into my God-given identity.
And, if default also means "...a failure to pay a debt." When I live like I still have something to live up to...A debt that I can somehow pay out of my abilities, best efforts and initiative - then I miss the opportunity to glorify God by showing off the fact that as incapable as I am and as much as this fallen reality happens to me, He's still my first priority. He still paid the debt I owed.
And, well Thank God! Jesus acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind (soul and strength) but am pulled by the influence of my flesh, my default setting, to something totally different. Yes, Thank God.
Dear Lord, I confess that I have been trying to do this my way. Overwhelmed by my own expectations and failing to do the one thing I ought - invite You to be my guide. Please reveal to me the lie that I believed that causes me to revert to my default settings of trying to do this thing called life without You?
Please also, show me the Truth that replaces that lie so that I may repair my foundations and live in the Freedom of Your work in my life. Thank You for redeeming me from the works of my flesh and creating in me the exact reflection of Your Image that only I can present. I praise You that You are the God of all flesh and nothing is impossible for You ---- Not even turning this prideful, determined heart into a melting pot of Your will.
Jesus, thank You for paying my debt so I don't have to DEFAULT any longer. You bless me in every way and I am grateful.